Autumn Leigh.

Youre 14. Sitting in the backseat of a car, past curfew with your crush. Him kissing you for the first time. Touching you in places youve never been touched before. The shaking, the butterflies, the time slowing, the never wanting it to end. He tells you how beautiful you are, you smile and blush. He pulls you in closer. You just feel so special that he wants to share this moment with you. Thats the time I miss… The time when everything was special, beautiful, amazing… Now its like nothing new. No more feeling special. Just another good time with another cute guy… Hm:/

Hes back. Like, hes really back… I didnt see this coming and I dont know what to do. All I know is im keeping my guard up and locked. Im not letting myself get hurt again. Im going to be strong and keep going the way ive been going. Ive been happy and I want to stay that way. Yes.

In the words of Adele, I wont let you close enough hurt me…

That moment when you get dumped, but then realize you only wanted one guy, and you werent happy anyway…

Did you convince yourself? For a minute there you seemed pretty good. But now I look at you and you seem miserable. You miss him. You wish you could tell him. You have no right. You hate yourself but he probably doesnt care. You wish soooo much that things were different. Youre in a good place now. You have a good guy, even if he doesnt make you as happy as you used to be… Ignorance is bliss.

Things have actually been really good lately. Im not worried about anything, my boyfriend and I are happy, and my friends are there for meee, and schoools going goood, ahhh im just in such a good mood:) which is a very rare occurence. Lol hoping things stay thisss wayyy! AndrewJosephClark<3

Its times like these I wish I wouldve been pregnant, so I couldve just dropped out… Fuck school.

NO I FUCKING DO NOT.

Im actually happy right now. I have so many friends, and now an amazing boyfriend:)

Andrew Joseph Clark 21912<3

My life is beginning to come into place. Im doing well in school, the musical is going good, im having some good teenage fun, and im HAPPY!

So fuck you for trying to bring me down.